Showing posts with label Awe. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Awe. Show all posts

Monday, March 9, 2009

Experience

I am so moved by what happened during and after our Fraternity (of Communion and Liberation) Lent retreat this weekend. Between the content of all Fr. Roberto said and his sharing his life with us, there is so much to turn over in my heart.

But what is standing out for me so powerfully is Fr. Roberto's insistence that we meet Christ in everything that happens, as it happens. There is no separation between Christ and my work, Christ and my friendships, Christ and my heart. All of reality is infused with his miraculous Presence.

In which case, before I can serve Christ in you, I must first meet him in you. That is, when I come face-to-face with you, I am coming face-to-face with the Lord of history, in all the Mystery and awesome power that that entails. By "you," I don't just mean you to whom I'm writing now -- I mean every person (and really all Creation!). Sometimes we worry about the lack of reverence we or others have in front of the Eucharist -- what about our colossal lack of reverence in front of each other?

So, then what is the purpose or special role of the baptized, if all reality is Christ meeting me now? We are baptized into this awareness (the better word is faith) and our life's work is to witness to one another about this Reality, this fact of existence. As witnesses, we must continually testify to Christ's Presence to one another -- and not let any one of us forget or slip into vagueness on this point. And because the witness testifies, he takes on the role of Christ; his witness means that he conforms more to the person of Christ, so that he, like Christ, is the one who makes this Presence known and felt in the world. In other words he manifests, more profoundly and more acutely, this Presence of Christ and is thus recognizable as a member of the living Body of Christ in the world.

So let's do the work of looking, of reminding ourselves that Christ is before us continually. Let's tell each other what we see!

So, my question to everyone is, what's happening? What do you see? And when we tell each other what's happening and what we see, let's do it out of charity to one another -- as the most important charitable work there is -- we will be helping one another to see one miracle after another. And we will get better and better at seeing these things, the more we practice this looking at reality with new eyes.

Yesterday, when the retreat was over, I drove Anna (a high school girl from Italy who is spending a year in the U.S.) back to her host parents, she spoke to me about how loving and generous this couple was, and about her deep affection for them, which was evident in every word. She told me about how the wife was expecting her first baby in July and about how she (Anna) was leaving in June and would miss seeing the baby -- with a little regret but not deep disappointment, because she is certain that either they will come with the baby to Italy to visit or she would be back to see them again. I was moved for several reasons -- but mostly because a girl her age could leave her home and her friends and travel from a rather large city (Milan) to a tiny town in Ohio and develop such deep affection for a couple of adults whom she could have easily treated as simply a launching pad for her American adventure with other American teenagers. But it was even more astonishing to meet her host father. There was nothing cosmopolitan or fascinating about this man on the surface, but Anna loved him as a father, this much was evident. I remembered Fr. Giussani's definition of forgiveness: the capacity to tolerate difference. What mercy I witnessed in the five minutes I stayed in that home before heading back to my home! The way Anna loved this man was a keener witness than anything she could have said about this relationship. May we love one another in this way!!

Recognizing Christ (is this how we look at one another?)

Friday, October 3, 2008

What is the Remedy for Childhood Paralysis?

Dear friends,

Here are a couple of quotes that I have been working with this week. For the full context, please look at page 83 of Is it Possible to Live This Way? vol I. It's from the Assembly at the end of Chapter 2 which tackles the subject of freedom.

"that childhood paralysis that increases in proportion to the object we are in relationship with."

This really grabbed me: paralysis increases in proportion to greatness of the object at hand. I also notice the word childhood here, not childish. This fear is common to all of us, and we first ran across it in childhood. In my case, I was ten or eleven years old on my first Boy Scout campout, which happened also to be a family one. We were in Colorado in the Rocky Mountains, and I was with others climbing a mountain on top of the mountain. Looking down was not the problem, but looking out was — to see a vast horizon of mountaintops in every direction filled me with awe and totally paralyzed me. Not only could I not continue, but it took a concerted effort to get me able to get down. I remember that I had my camera with me and I began to take pictures, and that is what calmed me down enough to let myself be helped off of the precipice.

Fr. Giussani continues:

"what does my freedom do to enter into something so burdensome?"

"Accept! Accept the project of another."

As I think back to that moment, I wonder if the photography was my way of accepting the impossible greatness of being on one mountaintop and seeing all the others.

What's also curious to me is that it wasn't distance from the ground which terrified me but equality with mountains: seeing those imposing giants in the distance and realizing that my circumstance coincided with that greatness.

For about 3 or 4 weeks at my work, I was resisting — fighting — not so much against toil (that too!) but against success, victory, happiness. My work has brought me to some peaks that I do not feel equal to, knowing as I do my own frailty, my own incapacity, my own nothingness. Over the last couple of days, very timidly, I've begun to say yes again to the "project of Another." And what a consolation it is, because I'm not equal to the greatness in which I am set. Because, as Balthasar says God schools us with alternation of consolation and desolation until "we have learned how one can even enjoy in a wholly selfless manner and how to experience enjoyment itself as a service" (Grain of Wheat, 11).

Fr. Giussani recounts his own experience of fear as a child in The Religious Sense, p 129-130.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Greater: Rose and the Meeting Point in Uganda


The documentary on Rose and the Meeting Point International - which won an award in Cannes last month - is available to view online.

You will need to download Babelgum's program before the video will play. Just follow instructions after clicking this link:

http://www.babelgum.com/113782/greater-defeating-aids.htm